measi's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- So... I'm 28 I decided on a whim to get that natal return chart. I'm not sure how I feel about a whole year of Mercury being retrograde in my life, but I guess I'll deal-- always need to find a scapegoat for things that go wrong. Just kidding. Being 28 is definitely a thing of reflection-- my solar return chart wasn't wrong there. I'm now the age that my (adoptive) mother was, 28 years ago today, when I was born. I'm the same age my grandmother was when she, my grandfather, my uncle, and my mom came over from Germany after WWII on a church-sponsored immigration. I see my mother and grandmother as being amazingly mature, strong women at age 28, who took on an amazing amount of responsibility and risk at this age. I look at myself, and don't see it at all. I see a girl who's still not quite sure what direction she's going in life. I don't know if I can handle big risks right now. I find myself wondering about the topics I never planned to think about-- marriage, kids, etc. I wonder if this is a sign of the infamous "biological clock" ticking away. I wonder if it's just introspection, trying to figure out how these things matter to me. I think about my biological mom, like I did last year, and wonder how I fit into her thoughts today. I wonder what's in store for me in that year filed away under "Age 28." ~ a contemplative Mel 10:34 a.m. - 11 January 2003 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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