measi's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Fifth Anniversary Mother Goddess, Father God~ Please let me get through this day. I dread it, just as I have each November 7th. Just let me get through this day. Without crying. Without self-torture. Without blame. Without doubt. Without anger. What is done, is done. There is no changing it. It happened five years ago. I am no less a person for it. No one else sees the mark of shame I feel. I acknowledge my need to mark and reflect it. I don't like to, but it's there. So please, let me forgive myself. Let me live today as I always do. Please just let me get through this day. Because tomorrow, I can be myself again. So Mote It Be. 9:36 a.m. - 7 November 2002 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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