measi's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- riding in video game cars with boys I'm going to my first true LAN party this evening with [erich]. Geekiness will take on a whole new persona. Oh yes. Nearly 36 hours of video-game geekiness from hell. I'm excited, but a bit worried about being the only female at this little shindig. Not so much for being the only woman, but for the guys being overtly worried about what they say around me. Granted, I haven't seen much of that so far from Erich's friends... but I remember it a lot in college, despite the fact that I can have a mouth like a sailor sometimes. Sure, there are times when I feel uncomfortable. Certain words do step over the line with me, but unless they're directed at me, I generally just let them slide. The *one* exception is c*nt. I despise that one. Down to my bones. It's such a nasty, hateful word about a woman. And due to the fact that change one vowel and you have my last name, just imagine how brutal the taunting was in Jr. High with that one. But for the most part, I'm pretty laid back. From age thirteen on, I was the only female in the house. I was outnumbered. I got used to it. The toilet seat was left up, and I knew complaining wouldn't make a damn bit of difference. The only reason I remind Erich of it now is because both Colley and Fizzy make a break for the bowl whenever it flushes, and I really don't want toilet-water cats. I'm intimidated about being the "groupie" and the "wannabe." Particularly when it comes to video games. I'm not good at them. For some reason, my mind just isn't made for strategizing. I enjoy playing games like Starcraft, where a plan is needed, but can't seem to figure out the plan. I'm just wired differently, I guess. But I'll try it, and a bit of social anxiety aside, I should have a good time. See you guys Sunday. --Mel. 3:00 p.m. - 15 March 2002 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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