measi's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Samhain ponderings It's Samhain tonight. I haven't planned a thing. I'm just too damn tired. And NaNo starts tomorrow. Which means I need to sleep tonight. Between work and home, I'm pretty tapped these days. I've completely fucked my finances... again. And now I've given up trying to do it myself-- I'm handing over my bills to Erich so he can help me keep on top of things. (Because I literally have nothing to get me to November 15th once rent is paid). Fuck fuck fuck. I honestly don't understand why... or how... I've let my life just tailspin like this again. But I'm completely overstretched and wiped out. I need to contact a lot of people who I haven't emailed in months. I'm sick of my job and seriously want to quit, but can't muster the energy to get anything else right now. I feel like my life is dictated by the social schedule of the others in my apartment, and I hate it (I just want to come home to QUIET). I need a serious reboot. If I had money, I'd probably resort to some vodka today to wash away pain. But alas, no money... and for once, we have barely any vodka in the house. * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * Of course... I could just be seriously premenstrual right now. * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * And on a completely off-topic note... I saw the Hancock tower blink in a pattern that it never had before-- blinking blue AND red. Because the Curse is Dead. Pheh. Anyone got some uppers? 1:52 p.m. - 31 October 2004 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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